Y’know what I’ve learnt in the (short) course of this week? If you take things one week at a time, things really aren’t so bad. Of course I’m partly speaking from an educator’s point of view (how else would I speak?) where we think in terms of weeks, terms and semesters. Days? Periods? They’re just another deadline. Deadlines that we somehow manage to keep pushing. You’ll know what I’m talking about if you’re a fellow teacher. NUDGE. WINK.

Tomorrow’s Hump Day. (No, not that kinda hump, you perv!) And it’s slowly becoming one of my favourite days of the week. Mostly because it marks a nice, gradual descend into the end of the week. So yes, the partying usually starts on Wednesday. In the mind, at least. But what I love about this whole epiphany is that it’s helping me to take things slow, and breathe a lot easier.

Previously, I would aim to have as much foresight as possible, and plan way, way ahead. Then the real work started rolling in, and I realised how tough it was to stay afloat, what with all the weight I was carrying. Then amid all the hope of work/life balance, I saw that as much as I loved the kids, I really needed to care for myself first, before I could care for them. So, out went the crazy shit, and in came this little thing called PERSPECTIVE. I knew I had to abandon my ideals and accept that I’d never be like a Hilary Swank in Freedom Writers, or Michelle Pfeiffer in Dangerous Minds, because I was supposed to be the teacher that God wants me to be. And from there, it dawned on me that I was also supposed to be the daughter, cousin, friend that God has shaped me for. This was the perspective that I really needed. Especially with what’s happening with my family.

I’ve never blogged anything personal about my family mostly because I want it to remain private, and because I was afraid it would worsen situations should anyone stumble upon it. And I intend for it to remain that way. But I will say this: in spite of everything, I’m so glad I am as close as I am to my extended family. And I really want to thank God that we all share the same faith and values. Without which, I’m sure things would have been more crazy/out of control.

So even though I (crazily) prayed for more trials this week, I know that I’ll be able to get through it all cos God is faithful. More than I can ever imagine.