So my visit to Brissie wasn’t as long as I would’ve liked (mostly because I have this little commitment called “work”) still, it was a good trip. After all, the main purpose of this trip was to catch up with everyone and hang out with my girls. And even though I treasured every single moment with them, it’s also made me realise that they’ve all grown older without me.
Don’t get me wrong, we’ve not grown apart. I’m just no longer a big part of this life that they are now forging. And y’know what? It hurts. It hurts that I can’t be there to offer help during times of crisis, or share in their joy when they (finally) announce that they’re expecting or even something simple like offering my opinion when they’re choosing a piece of furniture. I just really want to be there for them. But I can’t.
I’m still grappling with the fact that they’re so far away now and we can only meet up as often as we’re able to travel to each other’s cities. And y’know, just as I hate not being there for their big moments, I also hate that they can’t be here to share mine. (Dia & Nessa, you girls had better stay local!)
The new semester begins tomorrow. It’s back to the routine of waking up before 6am & spending about 10 hours at work each day. Explain to me again why I’m not feeling excited?
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Was good to see you back in Brissie again Ally. Hope the next semester goes well for you and you don’t go nuts with the teaching.
Given everyone here has got their own lives going on, I’ve gotten used to that sort of strange feeling of being “out of place” and “in place” even though I’m here in Brissie with people from church and the few friends from school and work I keep in touch with. That’s how life goes I guess.
B
Oh I’m definitely gonna be Sg-bound for some time, duncha worry hun ;)
And we’ll get to see the girls again in December! Wheee! Cheer up *hug*
back to school for you!
did you get new shoes? hehe…
i rem i always had new pair of shoes or at least they were spankingly white when I went back to sch.
countdown to dec!!!
Nessa, I DID get new shoes actually. Got them from Steven Madden cos they were on sale. Saved about $45! Yay! :p
And thanks for the encouragement, B & Dia!
What? How come not Bata?
LOL. Bata shoes? How old school. Literally. :p